| Hmmm.... |
[May. 6th, 2005|09:06 am] |
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| |  crappy | ] |
Well its been a while since i posted on here...mainly because my father is an idiot and seems to think that i type loudly...which is very annoying since i think thats bollocks and keyboards make lots of noise anyway...
Have very bad thoughts at the moment that involve me not eating anything for a few days just to loose a little weight...i dont think it would do me any harm...at least not a lot...its only a few days...but i see how stupid this thought is im just getting desperate i dont seem to have time to go the gym and im putting weight on like an elephant locked in a safe full of peanuts...i.e. fast...hmmm but not eating is not a good idea...at all....hmmm....
I hate this me... |
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| College |
[Apr. 21st, 2005|02:20 pm] |
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| |  gah... | ] |
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| | library silence... | ] |
gah.... |
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| Updating |
[Apr. 17th, 2005|08:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Definition of Self = UNKNOWN | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Placebo | ] |
Its complicated to update journals when you have stuuuuuupidly busy weeks its just plain crazy! Last week...in fact the last two weeks....for example are prime examples of what most teenagers suffer from "No-Time Syndrome" in extreme cases it affects even the most studious...it has a basic formula, based on scientific* reflection and the discovery of the magic extra 72 hours in a day:
Teachers + Imminent Workload = (Student Time)
(i.e. Coursework) (Time Required for Coursework) - 7000*
= Constant Negative Number X 4320**
= Negative Student Time***
* = 7000 is taken from the sensible number that would give a negative number making my theorum correct
** = 4320 is the number of minutes in the magic 72 hours in a day
*** = Negative Student Time, the correct term for why Students often don't have time to complete their coursework due to said "Negative Student Time"
(This Equation is solely offered for a genuine Excuse throughout Colleges worldwide, it also may be a load of bollocks and therefore no notice should be taken of said equation...)
But yea back to two weeks:
a) Pirates of Penzance Tues-Sat EVERY NIGHT
b) Corusework worth 30% of AS mark
c) Grandma has cancer
d) Auntie has cancer
e)imminent breakdown
f) my birthday
g) Various social events
h) last week of seeing boyfriend as i wont see said boyfriend for two months
i) various other stupid things....i.e work
So yea...i'll stop my stupid non sensical, non witty "unwitticisms"
Hannah
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| The Gondeliers |
[Mar. 17th, 2005|08:46 pm] |
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| |  crazy is the word baby | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Memory music, the odd kind... | ] |
The Gondeliers, thats a way to grab someones attention, no doubt precisely what was thought by gilbert and sullivan when they wrote it. Im beginning to develop an appreciation for Gilbert and Sullivan does that mean i should "whip out m'zimmer frame an't goooo?" Most probably. Oh well, hehehe, just remembered random science moment:
Setting: A random experiment in Mr. Trevatts science lab to do with filtering soil...
Moi: Right lets label the filtery thingys...
Elle: Ok, soil one, soil two, soul three...
Moi: Soul three?
Elle: SOUL!
Moi & Elle: *laughter rings out then they get bollocked*
Moi: ok lets start the experiment
Elle: Un, dos, trez, una ses manna sen maria! GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Lmao!!! Wow i forgot about that its crazy bread, aww mr trevatt and his crazy bavarian granny basket which doubled as a plane to bavaria, crazy, crazy memories! Hehehe he was a ledge!
Today was one of them days fun but not...it was fun coz the people made it fun apart from People having mumps striking me with the awful fear that im next...gah nooooooooo not mumps, i dont want to be mumpy and look like...like...a...bull frog! Im probs the only one who will look like that...in fact...its damn funny.....lmao....
Im in an odd mood today im paranoid then not, then bouncy then not, then sleepy then not, its GAH-ness personified, gah-ness i tell YOU!
Oh dear that was a rather large digression, i was supposed to be informative about G&S the gondeliers, well it was funny and good, id recommend it as a light hearted story, just because it has a cheering up ability then again so does pirates! Yea its good, id give you asynopsis but im lazy...in fact no ill give you asynopsis:
1. Two gondeliers called Marco and Giuseppi who have to choose wives from the 24 waiting for them in venice
2. to decide they play a game of blind mans buff and choose tessa and gianetta
3. The Duke of Plaza-toro arrives with his wife and daughter Casilda
4. They tell Casilda she was married at six months old to the heir to the throne of barataria, whom was stolen away and hidden in venice
5. Casilda is stricken as she loves handsome Luiz
6. We discover one of the two gondeliers, marco and giuseppi, is the new King of barataria
7. There new wives are thrilled as one will be queen until they discover one of the gondeliers in married.
8. However it is resolved it is discovered, Luiz is the king so Casilda is already married to him and giuseppi and marco love there wives!
The End!
Wow my mum has bought me a purple cowboy hat for claires cowboy party its tres funky! i love it...*dances with new hat*
Wow i can tell this is going to be a long entry its like an email to someone whom i can be bothered typing an immense story to...bit like the ones me n al used to send then he got msn so i chat to him over that! You know its fun...but its not really the same maybe i shud make him email me by nt talking to him....hehehehe....that'll show him...mwahahahahaha....i dont really mean it of course.......
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| Theatres |
[Mar. 15th, 2005|09:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sleepy tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Muse - Newborn | ] |
Its odd but i seem to be theatre orientated this week, im going tomorrow night to see the gondeliers which apparently has some sexy tenors in it so ill be drooling, then im going to see a play with my b/f (whom i care for very much but i can still drool over sexy tenors...hehehe...) and his parents which will be fun, but ill probably get all shy and hide from his parents...then im in pirates of penzance, which is equally exciting! However tonight we went to the WLO and they had this meeting to see which play we were doing next year and the comittee want carmen but there are reservations because its a "proper opera" and we're light opera but O...M....F....G i have never felt so uncomfortable in ALL. MY. LIFE. it was like a big epi over why couldnt we stick to gilbert and sullivan and if you stay in a niche it could cause the society to not work but maybe we should take small steps because this is a big fucking leap! However yea wasnt that bad tho im looking forward to doing the play and i think it will go well on the night and im going to give it my best shot, its the men that worry me and the women....in fact the most part of the chorus BECAUSE THEY CANT UNDERSTAND A SIMPLE DANCE! its has to be the simplest dance ever and they have even simplified it down and they still cant do it, its like OMG WHAT ARE YOU DOING! Gah, rant over, i am excited tho....even tho the costume is...well....lets leave it at that.... |
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| Holiday! |
[Mar. 13th, 2005|09:23 pm] |
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| | quixotic, what a word! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Ladykillers | ] |
Its like five days till the end of term (easter) and on that same day im going on my jolly holidays avec my boyfriend! Thats shgould be fab we're going to somewhere in yorkshire and there are other people from his uni going (the only reason apparently im allowed to go according to my parents) which is better than nothing i suppose but i maean if al asks me to go on holiday with him in the summer (which i doubt but im thinking ahead) my parents are soooo going to say no...unless we go with like four thousand other people to make sure that "nothing happens" i.e i dont jump his bones whilst we lounging in the grecian sun or something...silly silly parents, his bedroom is a very good placce for this...though less full of romance it means you dont get sand in awkward places...hehehe....so YAY im actually ratehr cheerful but exhausted...because of stressssssssssssss.......
Hannah
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| Tears |
[Mar. 9th, 2005|09:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  EMOTIONAL RAMPAGE | ] |
| [ | music |
| | TV | ] |
I had a minor emotional breakdown, i was watching celebrity fame academy (no that wasnt what caused it) Then Kim Metcalf came on and sang born to try and for some reason i just burst into tears i think it was linked to my mate jenny who made this dvd of everyone on the last day and it had that song on and booosh i was in tears...it was crazy i just wanted the people i knew at high school back and i knew it wouldnt happen and yea....sad eh? |
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| Shopped Out |
[Mar. 5th, 2005|09:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Knicker shopped out | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Roberta Flack -killing me softly (oddly playing in ma head) | ] |
7 pairs of underwear, is it a crime?
They are pretty.... |
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| Academic Ruin |
[Feb. 16th, 2005|09:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  GAH! GAH! GAH! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Vanessa Carlton | ] |
Its wednesday and i am speedily on my way to academic ruin, i hate the college that says ahh a half term give them shit loads of work and destroy their lives by making them worry and cry...
I have work from every subject..thats FIVE subjects i have:
French Essay on drugs
Preparation for French Speaking
Two History essays - James 1st and Civil Rights in America
Biology Sheet (which i may have temporarily displaced)
Art (which is a big job in itself)
AND
Two English lit essays - streetcar named desire and poetry (which may or may not have been given before christmas but i dont remember that...)
So im going to die...die a horrible bloody and dismembering death...or perhaps i should get my arse offline and actually do some work...this seems favourable....
Hannah
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| Brat Camp |
[Feb. 15th, 2005|09:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper? Wtf? The word is fun | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Tv (again) | ] |
Again its like en evening of TV but its really interesting to watch the chav/rich snobby children who deserve a slap learn how to behave
Hannah
Only a likkle one today
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| Valentines Day |
[Feb. 14th, 2005|09:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | TV - Body shock | ] |
See i told you i would be here online festering on valentines day, i did however purchase a gift for my boyfriend, i bought him karl marx the communist manifesto, two really cool magic roundabout chocolate bars and a little book of chav speak since he calls me a pikey and i thought id rip him...just a little bit. Oh well, ill get over my hatred of valentines day and just randomly type...
Currently watching bodyshock on channel four about the girl with the xray eyes, who claims to see inot peoples bodies and diagnose what it worng with them, its really interesting, im usually a laid back person and so tolerate many things, sometimes im proabbly the proverbial fencesitter but i dunno maybe its justthat fact that i do not believe she would be that calcualating to con people into believeing in her gift or that fact that only recently she asked for a small donation to her cause, i believe what she claims is possible...its however relaly interesting and i suppose we must looka t two sides of the spectrum her point of view and that of the scientists, they claim that its physically impossible and blame it on luck and a psycological belief, but how would a young girl of little medical knowledge diagnose a boy whom educated doctors suspected had TB with a legion of damaged lung tissue and draw exactely what it looked like? i suppose its one of lfies unanswerable questions...i do like this though its really interesting, and i have been encouraged to broaden my horizons...
My dad was a bit pissed at me today mainly because i didnt tell him that i hadnt entered the north west indoor rowig thingys, because i didnt want to because i did not think i was good enough to enter and i really cant cope wiht him yelling at me again after if i hadnt done well, like last time when my dad went sick and i had to phone al in tears...*sighs*
You know sometimes doctors are pretnetious arseholes....
Ahh well
See you soon
Have a happy V********'s Day
Hannah
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| Is it wrong? |
[Feb. 11th, 2005|08:49 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | Twisted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lost prophets...again | ] |
Is it wrong that i am completely attracted to DAvid Hyde Pierce? And would actually shag him if i was
a) single
b) knew where he lived and
c) given the oppurtunity with the collaboration of teh above
No its not hes younger than my dad so that makes it all ok...hes only 45.......hmm......
Im a sick twisted little girl...
And i like it!
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| Its Frideday in 3 hours and 25 minutes (when i started this) |
[Feb. 10th, 2005|08:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | peaceful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ladykillers | ] |
Yeeee--aaas it be frideday tomorrorw, oh lovely friday for thine i hath been waiting for to long, i lovest the friday in which i may sleep until the sun is up and then returneth early to my abode in the general warmth of the day. Poetic non? He suis tres fatiguee aujourdhui, c'est tres difficle pour moi au college, je n'ai concentration pas pour les devoirs. bah, c'eat enneyeux aussi...a demain, a demain c'est vendredi une jour celui la weekend!
Voila, i have filled my quota of french for today, its shitty bad grammar and generally shitty french but i dont care i tried, i so wish i could speak fluent french it would cheer me so!
Yes tis valentines day soon and it is on informed opinion that it would be a better world if we didnt have it, romance should be spontaneous, special not dictated by a comerciallised day which smacks of consumerism thus taking away all romantic notions filling them with preemptory dread and obligatory feelings of spouses to buy a gift for their partner. Not that im embittered about the day at all and many can say well you have a partner but it doesn tmean that i actually want anything, i hope he isnt expecting a present i dont buy valentines things out of principal...ALSO people who make faux pas feel like dickheads on this day even moreso than in normal life, its a silly holiday and should be eradicated....at least thats my opinon i suppose ill get lynched by valentines fanatics now, but yaboo sucks to you all ill be at home festering in embittered revelerie plotting against the evil consumerism...
Rant for the day over...i fell so much better linked to previosu current convo with chick, he understands the revelations of valetines...
Oh dear just read an article on the bbc news, some woman ripped off ehr ex boyfriends testicle because he made her mad, although i send her a possible deserved pat on the back, it may relatively harsh and therfore i send condolences to the man and to his lost testicle, whom he will probably bury and set up a shrine to...well i found it funny...
REading a really interesting book at the moment, well actually im reading two, im reading one called elizabeth by davivd strakey who also did a tv series of the same name, which looks into the early life of elizabeth, c'eat tres interesant and one which looks into the relatively un-examined life of mary her sister, it promises a really good read, so i recommend it! And now i shall stop being a history geek. *stops*
Anywho there really isnt a lot lot else to write today..hmm...ooo i am going to see al on saturday which is like the day after tomorrow which was also a filum but a sad one so we wont dwell
Tata!
Hannah
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| Lent |
[Feb. 9th, 2005|08:46 pm] |
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| | crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | random | ] |
Apparently lent began today and since everyone was giving something up i decided to jump on the bandwagon, be opting for the classic opt out "im giving up giving up" used for centuries by many lazy people who simply could not be bothered purging their soul of "forbidden items" like jesus so juslty did just for the sake of conforming to religion, not that im knocking it i just dont have specific views on religion or on jesus or on the beliefs of others, i just dont wish to conduct my life by conforming to the religious sanctity that many flee to to let them believe that their lives are not meaningles they have purpose, to serve god. But yes, i was given two choices give up sex or give up ribeana...now this is a particularily harsh sentence i find since both give me pleasure, whether it be a sugar high or pro-coital...either way my mind immediately jumped to ribeana but then i felt somewhat bad for abandoning the drink on which i am possibly psychologically dependant or give up sex which could drive me in a horny insane crazed state and i may attack many unsuspecting bystanders...both of which i could result in serioius damage to my health, so although disregarding both i may have to give up one..but which one? its so hard! (literally and figuratively or would be hard if i was male resulting from horny state) argh...i think its going to ahve to be ribeana i may have deprived al from sex to and thats probably not a good thing...oh well i may have to jump his bones on saturday hehehe....
Hannah
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| THOSE moods |
[Feb. 8th, 2005|09:36 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | Confused like a rabbit... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lost Prophets (again) track 7 i love it, i want its babies | ] |
People i find have specific moods, for example i am in one of THOSE moods, where i am satisfyingly blunt as the "caring mode" (i.e trying to make everyone happy usually at the expense of oneself) is alleviated and if im blunt and they dont like it tough shit. Bah, just one them ones...lol, women eh? confusinging littel beings that we are...
Oooh yeah life sjust getting me down at the moment i seem to have sunk back into the old mindset, the niche in which i lived for i have to say the first i dunno 16 years of my life, labouring under the belief i am fat and ugly and undesirable to anyone, then that was lifted when i met my b/f and he seemed to find me relatively attractive and i dunno why but its back, maybe im just being paranoid again..it does happen...maybe its excessive ribeana consumption maybe its what it does to you...
OMG, the canteen has stopped selling purple ribeana...*sounds of scrathing record* its unbelieveable i was so annoyed, it was like GAH! they took away my only source....*weeps*, i was soo upset it was silly...i can cope without it...*shakes*
*sighs* i have so many stupid things going on in my head i dont know which is right or worng anymore, i dont know what i want at all, all i do nkow is that my history teacher thinks im good enough to go to oxford or cambridge to study history, which i want to do, so thats all good...i was sooo chuffed i was such a happy bunny it was like YAY! Woooooooooooooooo, happy bunny-ness....lol
See chronic mood changes one minute, i am depressed let me leave this life, next bounce around like a bouncy castle fiend...i cant win...gah, gah gah gah gah gah gah....
I think ill try scream therapy....
*screams*
Not a good idea i just get bollocked by parentals...they can be so annoying, they treat me like im four years old, i know my own mind enough at least i feel like ive just gotten to know myself so well in the last year, i really can tell the ins and outs of me, and they always ahrp on about how mature i am and then they restrict me from doing thigns that every other sixteen yearold can do, and i know its the age old adage well shes allowed to do it..but its soo fitting in these circumstances!!!
I was ripping everyone today, it was harsh but i couldnt help it i just seemed to say these horrible ripping things and i felt so bad after wards i had to apologise frequently, i feel so fucked up...i hate being me...
*notives the sudden mood changes* ok i dont hate being me i actually love being me but i hate the psychological side sometimes its so confusing i dont know what im doing from on day to the next half the time...tis very very silly...
Oh woe to the being whose celestial powers deemed us to live on this earth rather than one of dreams where everything is happy..but i suppose if everything was happy its be really scary and claustrophobic, so we cant complain i do like life sometimes i just cant be doing wiht it at this minute, second, moment.... |
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| Life |
[Feb. 7th, 2005|07:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lost Prophets again! | ] |
Deep meaningful title but probably not deep meaningful content just random ramble about life in general i think, life is actually going well, *touches everything in the near vicinity made of wood stops walkig under ladders and shoots all black cats* My parents have actually LET me and WILLINGLY LET ME go no holiday with my boyfriend and some of his amtes in march! I died of shock!
Lol, i also am just happy in general and yea WOOYAY for happylands of fun...
Hannah
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| LONDON |
[Feb. 5th, 2005|03:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | one big fucking cynic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | lost prophets | ] |
Heyhey! just got back from a trip to london qith college it was sooo cool, god im not going to have a big epi-rant bout it tho, it was just sooo cool and fun and yea...i kinda enjoyed it...specially the chav quote of the week, they saw a couple of kids in school uniform and said "i didnt know there were schools in london!" which was followed by a stunned silence from the majority of coach travellers.... lmao
Just thought id let you know, i was also on a big fucking epi with everyone this week for which i apologise but for many was proibanbly rightly deserved i am a bitch..
Hannah
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| Ending months |
[Jan. 31st, 2005|08:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  creative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | lost propets, start something | ] |
It feels so strange when months end, its like the closing of a month of living and beginnig another its like you start life over constantly and try and outdo each one by lviing and having more fun, but i suppose this next month holds promise...maybe itll be better.... |
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| Life atm... |
[Jan. 29th, 2005|08:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Greenday - Minority (cocking ace song) | ] |
Yesterday i went to see Greenday, it was fucking ace! It was so amzing, i went with five people, my b/f, jonathan, steady and andy. So there was five of us and steady decided we should mexican wave so we did then we did it again, then these guys behinds us were like "mexican wave! YEA!" so to cut a long story short, one idea, three people, 60,000 people or more, everyone mexican wave around teh stadium five times before death on the sixth, it was cocking ace! Greenday were ace, omg i havent been to a concert that was better! OMG, OMG, OMG, kk big fucking rant about teh aceness over....
http://www.jadedonline.esmartmusic.com/mainpic.jpg
YEAH GREEEEEEENDAAAAYYY!!!! i love them i want their babies...hehehehe....
Anyway today, i was wearing my greenday tshirt (which is also cool) and im all worried about my b/f because his car broke and his dad went sick apparently and hes really depressed about it and i think hes in a big mind fuck limbo at the moment, and hes getting worried because he was depressed before...im really worried but i mean how do you advise them about something you basically dont understand? Its soo confusing...i dont even know whats going on anymore, im living in some weird limbo land were i have no idea whats going on AT ALL!
Bah, damn sily world politics im going to go and live in my imaginary dream world in my room and be happy and smiley in my new pretty silk dress... |
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| Christmas is Over but its still amazing |
[Dec. 28th, 2004|07:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Jazz CD i got for chrimbo *rocks out* | ] |
Christmas just is another random day but is giving meaning by people everywhere, however the church being twats sometimes decided that harry potter shouldnt have been shown on christmas day ebcause it provokes witchcraft and wizardy amongst children! Well i think its time they stopped and had a think, you know removing their heads from their anal orifices...not that i dotn think the churchs have very good influences on people in fact i support the community side of it, coz some are relaly nice, but some of it, is just bollocks...but thats only my opinion...
So yeah, im happy and ill and happy mainly...
Hurrah for the festive cheer and finally a visit from sense...
Love
Hannah
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